The Leaves Are Changing, And So Am I
Haven’t had a chance to update due to lack of access to a computer. Sorry about that. So many changes in my life these days. Like the title says, the leaves are changing and so am I. Good changes :) I’ve been feeling good, feeling positive! I’m still loving my job, loving my friends, loving my apartment, my cat, etc. I’ve learned that a big reason why i’ve been hurt so much in my life, is because I have a big heart, and some people take advantage of that. I forgive too easily, so I end up getting hurt over and over again. I’ve been standing up for myself these days, and not taking peoples shit anymore. If you disrespect me, and my feelings, you’re out! I don’t need to keep toxic friends around. I know I’m far from perfect and I’ve done a lot to hurt others, but the difference is, I take responsibility for my actions, and I apologize. Today I was completely shocked and dissapointed by the behavior of one of my closest friends. She did something that upset me, I shared my feelings about it, and she just gave a list of excuses. Made me feel like I didn’t have a right to be upset. I ended up having to argue for an apology I deserved. As I see it, if you hurt someones feelings, you apologize. It doesn’t matter if you think it’s over something really dumb, or makes no sense. the bottom line is, your actions/words/whatever hurt that other person. You can’t tell someone their feelings aren’t happening or aren’t right because you didn’t intend to hurt them. It doesn’t work that way. Anyways, I cut out one of my closest friends and I’m pretty sad about it. But like I said, I don’t have time for toxic friends. On to other and more positive things though! I’ve been more social lately. I have my amazing group of girlfriends, and they make me go out and have a good time! Its nice to not be a complete loner anymore. I look at my girlfriends and feel such love in my heart for them. I’m a lucky girl! Today I went to the salon and changed my hair color! I was there for 5 hours! It’s a reddish brown color now, and I LOVE it! Next week I’m going back to put some low lights in it and then in a month I’ll go back for highlights! Bye bye black hair! I look like a whole new person! The tattoo on my arm is pretty much healed up, so I’m guessing next week I’ll be able to finish it! I’m fully addicted to my blackberry haha! I’m glad I chose it over the iphone. I’m on bbm practically all day talking to friends. So lets review the changes in the last month. New cat, new tattoos, new hair color, new positive attitude, feeling stronger and standing up for myself, new phone, and I think that’s it! In two months I’ll be 27, and I want to start off my 27th year on earth on the right foot. Stoked on life these days. Can’t complain.
