The Single Life
So I’ve been single since about Feb 11th of this year. I’ve had a few crushes, and talked to a few guys here and there, but nothing major. Except one. I’ve suffered two heartbreaks this year, and have come to realize that I’m not meant to be in a relationship. At least not for a while. I’ve got way too much going on in my life with work and building a life, I don’t really have much time for committing myself to another person. I’ve always been a relationship person, never really did the dating thing. Now at age 27 i’ve decided just to concentrate on me, and have fun. While turning over this new leaf, i’ve come to find that there is a huge double standard between guys who casually see people, and girls. I developed a very casual relationship with someone (i wouldn’t even call it a relationship), and seemed to get a lot of flack for it and made to feel like a bad person. I didn’t see what was so wrong with just having fun with someone, but eventually felt very attacked over the situation, and i have the feeling I’ve lost a friend or two over it. I don’t even know what to really think about this, because the same people who gave me shit, are people who are friends with those who seem to “hook up” a lot more than i do/have, and there doesn’t seem to be a problem with that. I just don’t get it. I’m hurt by some of the words I’ve had friends say to me over something that seems really innocent to me. I probably shouldn’t even be writing about this on the internet, but I just needed to vent, and only those involved would know what I’m really talking about. I don’t choose to throw names around in my blog. I love and respect all my friends, and I just hope they can love and respect me. Different people have different morals, and I don’t feel that mine aren’t so bad. Yes, they’ve changed a little, but ultimately i think i’m a good person. I don’t do drugs, I don’t sleep around, i’m honest, I work hard for everything I have, and I try to be a positive force in other peoples lives. I guess I just feel like I’m being judged unfairly at times. It only hurts when it’s by people I really care about though. Thats the hard part. Life goes on I suppose, and those who are meant to be in my life, will be there.
